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I have finally made myself start writing.

I apologize in advance for the messiness of my thoughts you might witness here. I hope, however, to reach clarity in this process and maybe assist you, my dear one, to do the same.

Have you thought about emptiness? I believe everyone has this space inside. Some perceive it as hollow. In fact, I may be some of those. It would explain why I try to fill it in so relentlessly every time I barely touch upon it. Social media with its infinite scroll and TV series that I can recite by heart - all of it is there, in my emptiness.

When I was younger these space-fillers were also people that I didn’t really want to be around. Luckily, with age and experience also comes a certain level of wisdom, and now I prefer my company better.

I wish I can say the same about my content consumption habits. While trying to find answers to “why can’t I stop scrolling?” or “why do I need to be distracted at all times?” I’ve realised that it is probably because I, as a human being, haven’t been given tools to manage this abundance of information and never-ending opportunities.

The shift happened only externally, as in the variety of options, but not in the paradigm of choosing between them.

Each one of us has this space, and it is measured in time and attention. It’s the gas tank of life minutes that we all individually have.

If I spend my time watching YouTube recommendations without any clear goal of why I am consuming this content, I am mindlessly giving away my life minutes making content creators and a YouTube executive team richer and myself poorer.

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